Where were you............?

It has become a familiar question every time we reach an anniversary of a large event that shook most of us in the world.

For most of us 9/11 was a truly horrid day.

I remember where I was....

We were living in Rocklin, CA at the time, we were renting a beautiful home, we were reasonably happy...

I was on my computer that morning, in my regular chat room. When someone posted that an airplane had hit the Pentagon, and was wondering if anyone knew anyone who worked there....

For the next half hour or so, we kept on chatting.

When I went out in the living room and turned on the TV, alerting Wheelie on the way that "something was happening" we quickly realized that much more was going on.

I remember standing in front of the TV the entire time, just watching, my arms crossed...

To this day I cannot remember how I felt. All I recall is just a huge numbness that descended over our house....

We were just numbed into silence. No outcries, no tears, no fear, just utter numbness.

After a few hours we decided to get out of the house for a while, go to the mall, find some sanity somewhere, some noise.....

To our surprise there were no cars in the large parking lot.

The mall was closed.

We looked at each other, and just stared.

How utterly weird!

Back home we went, looking for a flag to display.
We had none.

So we went out to find one. There wasn't a flag to be bought in our entire area . No stores had ANY flags!

Our newspaper printed a small flag in the paper, so we could cut it out and tape it on our cars.

It took weeks before we were able to get a decent decal...and a real flag

Last night as I was flipping through the channels while waiting for Bugs to come and pick up the baby, I hit on the History Channel which was airing a bunch of videos and films that was compiled from several sources. Just a minute to minute account, by different people, the ones who happened to have a camera on hand, some news paper people, some TV reporters...

I turned the sound off and the close caption too, I didn't want to hear the commentary. The pictures alone were enough to remind me what happened. Again I watched in utter silence, just shaking my head, but not actually FEELING anything......

It still numbs me to this day. Just like other horrible events when they happen, like that huge earthquake in China, the floods in India, the wars and atrocities in other countries....

I wonder if I have built a shield around my body to protect me from feeling fear, horror, sadness, outrage...

I am still numb.....

SGMKJ!